Well, the flu season is here! I took a major hit this last week and could barely move let alone think coherently. Yet the world – as we know it – wasn’t going to let that get in the way of demands on time, resources or energy. What I found was that I had to become very focused on using what little energy I did have and harness it to ensure that I could use it where I could get the best outcome for effort.
This is not the first time I’ve had this experience and in fact what I’d found myself doing was actually reminding myself of when I had been going through a very tough chemo type therapy for 12 months in 2007 and how I had to manage each day and moment with the same level of focus just to keep moving forward as I had this week.
It was a good reminder to me of how these experiences provide the lessons and learning for our practice to become more effective and engaged human beings.
While it also reminded me of how far I have come in my own development it served to reinforce that that development is a never ending journey as several times through this week (as it was through my 12 month stint) I found myself feeling frustrated, stressed and anxious. My mind wouldn’t settle on one thing and seemed continually distracted by random, incomplete and fragmented thinking.
In observing myself and the feelings generated, I realised that my mind and body were responding to this virus as a threat as it was attacking in so many places. The brain was doing what it does so well. It was mustering internal forces to work against the threat and in doing so was diverting energy normally available for other things – like attention, sustained focus and clarity.
While that may seem an obvious thing, in becoming conscious of that I recognised that rather than become concerned or anxious the best thing I could do was to accept that for the duration I was in the hands of something that had my greater good in mind (pardon the pun) and if I allowed it to do its job then I could assist by being relaxed, make myself as comfortable as possible and let it get on.
Of course the other thing was that a visit to the Doctor for support was also a very good move. You’ve also got to acknowledge when you need help. Another lesson learnt previously.
I hope the flu season treats you gently and if it doesn’t that you treat yourself with patience.